I, like most people on earth, live a meaningless life. It’s true. I don’t have any sort of greater purpose or reason to exist other than to raise my child and, even then, all I’m really doing is making sure that he (my kid) doesn’t fall into a spiked ditch somewhere. I’ve been thinking about purpose for a very long time and I wish I could have expressed this to my students (at the time when I had students) that life doesn’t have to have purpose and your life, especially, doesn’t have to have purpose. Think about how many times you hear this –> “do what you’re supposed to do” or some slight variation of that. It’s like a drum beating softly and nudging you like a reminder. Quite frankly… it’s annoying.
There are a couple of things that happen when you start living a life without direction or purpose. Days just kind of happen and you start to appreciate a lot of things around you. You stop caring so much about politics or what others think about you or your progress towards that ideal you, instead you just sort of enjoy what surrounds you. You start to listen and watch more and talk less. All the “major” news and events that people view as grandiose become extremely petty. I’m not saying I opened my eyes, I’m just saying that I started to see the things everyone is missing. I started looking another way. You start drinking water because you enjoy the taste. Weird huh?
Now, I’m not some hippy that stops to appreciate every flower I see, no, because that would be crazy and I’m not crazy (I can already see the comments). I did, however, start to weigh the time I have with my wife, son, and anyone else I happen upon, heavily. When you remove that urge to be important or attention worthy, you start to appreciate the moments you have. My pointless meaningless existence has been pretty nice so far.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not apathetic… I still worry. I worry about dying some unnatural death or about some psychopath breaking into my house at night but I’m definitely not worried about finding myself or doing what I’m “supposed to” do. Think about the purpose philosophy for a minute. What it’s really implying is that you find something that you don’t hate doing to make money. Sure I get that people have a calling in life but the end goal is to make a living. I hear the saying “Do something that you would do for free.” yeah… uhh.. you know what I would do for free? Sit in the sun and watch the birds. You know what else? Walk around, drive around, watch a movie, play a game, laugh, high five, write, and about a hundred other things. I love doing a ton of stuff and some have paid off, some haven’t and that is totally fine. I’m okay with not having a singular purpose or even a multitude of purposes in life. I feel comfortable not having to choose that one thing that I will do the rest of my life until I die and anyone that criticizes that is probably one dimensional and secretly jealous.
Having a purpose is fine too. If you feel like you absolutely need to be a marine biologist then, by all means, be a marine biologist. I’m cool with it. I’ll watch you be a marine biologist. But I’m here to say to the majority of the world who is struggling to find a place in this world that you don’t have to. In fact, there really isn’t a place for anyone in this world. We’re just here to live our life as long and naturally as our bodies will allow and blam… that’s it. Some say that our purpose is to explore the unknown, but why? What if (stay with me here now…) what if… the planet Earth is the first of its kind in our universe? What if planet Earth wasn’t even meant to happen? Like, we’re some sort of anomaly? I’ll go with that. That gives me peace. It doesn’t have to give you peace, but it gives me peace.
Anyways, it’s about high time I brewed some coffee because my addiction is calling me.